Kelly things

LONG LONG LONG POST... be ready for it. Don't read it if you don't like to read Kelly's Dramatic life issues right now, this is going up for the people who DO care.
People who are helping me- people who are going through it too. It's about Bry- Beth and myself. So here we go.
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I'm sorry for not talking more- i'm just in one of those stages- wanting to really focus on myself.. i need to make money, i need to look to plan everything I do so meticulously and I take everything I do so seriously.
My dad's mother, my grandma is going to pass away this week.
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I have serious walls up- and for crying out loud i'm finally trying to give trust to my sister, and that's huge for me.
We've had such a rocky relationship- but she is my sister. She is a bitch.

Flat out. A blunt, very wise bitch lol. I've grown to really admire that no bullshit attitude, the fuck you if you're a low life attitude.
She is a great person. Being a bitch just means you have a spine I've come to realize.

I know she only acts the way she does is honestly when it's called for.
I needed to go through some shit to understand that& to make me really want to be a different Kelly may.

I'm working out, I'm working, I'm writing, I've got my ged, and I'm ready to be involved in projects to use in a few months to show I can be a reliable responsible mother who deserves FULL custody.

I love my Baby. I was depressed and I slipped up when the depressions of life were WAY to much to take. Well- I nipped that pathetic attitude in the butt REALLY quick, and the Cook's will be being the first people who get to see this new Kelly, this new little Bitch.
At least i'm HONEST. I did my lying, but i've done my repenting, coming clean, and taking steps to make right the wrong.

Bryon played a very mean trick on me the other day, and I cried for honestly 3 hours over everything.
When I finally QUIT being so pissed, so hurt... I used my smart girl brain. I tore up my note I had for him.. I looked at the nick nacks from Japan.. I remembered how he fucked his ex girlsfriends.. made out with random girls.. lied to my dad.. to me.. now he is trying to sue me... and he tried fucking chrissy.. he lied to his work at the grouphome when I had called him off work because he was so fucking drunk he threw up in the bathroom for 20 minutes and couldn't make sense of a fucking thing. While I was crying, sober, hurt.

I'm done chasing someone so patetic. I'm getting my daughter from him in time, and he will NEVER see us again. Not a picture, nothing.

Honestly, I think he wanted this all along, and he is giving me fire to go on to make sure I accomplish every single last goal I have in the correct, legal, smart way.

My things were stolen, MY DADS CAR was sold BY ME and I NEVER had gotten paid for it, so it was stolen in my book.
Bryon stole my phone, and was too little of a man to give it back to me.
Want to know what makes me laugh? When he showed up the other day, he literally screamed, 'stay out of my life!' and RAN like a little bitch away from his wife..
In my opinion he was running from his problems, his responsibility, his promises- lol.

I can't be in love with a chicken shit of a person, the cop who showed up (he called them for some reason) told me that if I went down to the station I could ask the officers who made the arrest for a statement, for proof I was in a ABUSIVE situation- emotional- physical..
I loved him so much.
I would of done anything he asked..
Except be a bitch.

Funny how that changed.. He made me loose my second baby after he ended up getting physical.. So I was stupid enough to use over the counter medication as a anti depressant.

I'm happy now, i'm strong now, and I'm clean. I'm keeping up with house work, my bed is made each morning, I do yoga each morning before I go to work.

I'm ready to show the world EXACTLY who my ex was. What he put me through. Being a writer.. and in social media will help me with this even if I'm just telling a story of a evil person I used to know..
His mother.. and his angry father.. his strung out sister... and the little boy and little girl involved with this fucked family.

I can't completely move on until I reach the success I'm striving for.
It's all coming into place, and i'm so.. happy now.
I'm happy to be honest. I'm SO happy I keep taking the high road.

I feel so much better.

I'm writing a lot here so I'm going to wrap this up.
It's just whats going on in my head and I need to post this somewhere.

Vanescence.. is my life, motivation, my sunshine.
He could never love her like her mother does.
Ever.

♥